Ser Amado A Es Vivir

Love is an incredible, non-definable thing.

We just all know we cannot live without it, and we are very lucky if we find a partner in life that we are bonded to, connected to, in every way, with every essence of our beings, physical and spiritual. I once thought I felt that, found that. I was so wrong. How do I know that I am not wrong now? I cannot explain that. I just know what I feel now is more true and right than anything else that ever came before it. I cannot explain to anyone the amazing things that can happen between us. It can only be so because the love is so strong, the bond so tight, and the connection so open and clear. I know that we are lucky to have found this in our lives, and I am thankful on a daily basis. If there is such a thing as a soulmate, then this is it, my destiny fullfilled.

I have always been pretty sappy.

I am one of those 'romantics at heart' people. I even used to have those typical little girl fantasies of the knight on a white horse coming to sweep me up, carry me away, rescue me, adore me, and totally win over my heart. I was by no means a 'girly' girl either. I was actually a tom-boy, and 'prissy pink stuff' was just not my thing. Still yet, I longed for someone to come along, see me as lovely and beautiful, and fall deeply in love with me. I guess it is just simply human nature that makes us all want to be found attractive and worthy...worthy of being cared for. I was growing up in a world where women could now be anything they set their mind's to, and yet I was still shrugging off the career life in favor of wanting to be a wife and mother. Don't get me wrong, I DO believe women are equal to men as human beings, and it angers me that women are still being paid less than a man for doing exactly the same job. I just seemed to have this passion within me to be a housewife. Ahhh, housewife...that word is like some shameful naughty thing to be now. Being a stay at home mother is hard work. It is many jobs rolled into one with no monetary values placed upon it. Housewives are so often asked, "but do you work?" or "do you have a job?" Yes, believe me they work and it is a major job. Too many carry the attitude that it is not work unless you get some money for it. All the housewives would be incredibly wealthy if they ever actually did get paid for what they do. I do not think my ex-husband learned what all I really did contribute until I was gone. I am pretty sure he learned though, which is not a bad thing.

Anyway, back to love...

I obviously did not find it in my ex-husband, hence the 'ex' title. I was 15 when I met him, and had those stupid notions in my head that I loved him and could not live without him. Have you ever wanted to go back in time and smack yourself? ^_^; Finally, at the age of 31, I found someone that unlike any other before him, loved me simply for who I am. He finds me beautiful just as I look. He knows all my bad habits, quirks, annoying things I do...and yet he loves me. Not in spite of all of my faults, not loving me 'anyway', but because of them. They are who I am and how I am, and he loves the entire, complete package. It is an incredible feeling that I really lack the words to describe. Never have I felt love like this from, or for, anyone else. Never before have I understood the meaning of love so well. The words 'I love you' seem to be too simplistic, too superficial even, to express my feelings for him. Until I can find some other way to say it though, "I love you" will have to do. "Te amo con todo mi corazón y alma, para siempre jamás."

Mi Cielo, El Amor de Mi Vida

• Name: Julio César Corona Ortega
• Nickname: Hiryu
• Birth Date: 08/06/1976
• Zodiac: Leo the Lion (Chinese: The Fire Dragon)
• Fave Colors: Black and white
• Children: None
• Marital Status: Never been married / In A Commited Serious Relationship
• Background: Born in Mexico City, Mexico to a single mother who makes her profession as a doctor. I have lived in Mexico City for most of my life, only living in Hermosillo, Sonora near the north border of Mexico for a few years during my childhood. While living in Hermosillo, Sonora, my mother married. From that marriage I gained a younger brother (Carlos) and a little sister (Genesis).
• Hobbies: Videogames, Pen & Paper RPG's (especially AD&D), Martial Arts (haven't done this in MANY years tho), meditating in the shower, browsing around the Web, Macromedia Flash, voice acting, Magic: The Gathering... and eating bannana splits!
• Likes: Banana splits, swords and melee weapons of all kinds, anime and manga, medieval fantasy novels and roleplaying sourcebooks, almost all kinds of music, movies of all types, honest people, sincerity, smiles, rpg videogames and vintage gaming.
• Dislikes: People who don't listen, firearms, messing up my English and saying something entirely different to what I tried to say (yes, I STILL do it), two-faced pricks and twats, salsa/cumbia and that kinda tacky latin music, inconsiderate/loud neighbors, spam (both the fake ham and the mails), people who use others, and ice cream parlors that don't make banana splits.